so.. I'm a newbie here. I'm gonna try to write here once in a while. I'm so hooked on 'awkward' this amazing TV show! i wanna watch it.. :( i had this assignment due two weeks ago.. i didn't start it yet. like WTF this is so not me.. lately, i feel like I'm not myself anymore.. like how i was in Malaysia.. i used to do my homework everyday.. check if i left anything out.. but now, I've changed.. in a bad way. not only my looks.. but also my attitude... I'm looking uglier and uglier now.. i get so riled up so easily now.. i get affected by people's views about me so easily.. i used to not care about all this shit. now wtf is wrong with me? now when i see a person looking at me with a tint of distaste in their eyes.. I'll feel extremely horrible.. I'll feel like i wanna hide inside a huge hole and never come out.. I've been feeling SO defeated lately.. especially by these two girls at my school.. i hate them. :/ they.. urghh i don't even wanna talk about them. So anyway.. this is just how i feel now.. .
hope I'll feel better as the days go by.. i don't know what I'm gonna do with my freaking assignment.. HISTORY like who in the effin world enjoys history?! let alone write a long ass assignment about it.. they always say "do not dwell on the past", "look forward", "look ahead", "see what the future holds for you" or some shizz..but then wtf are we doing now? learning about the PAST. what kind of stupid logic is this.. i don't wanna know what happened before. i wanna know what's gonna happen. I'm not even interested. it's stupid how it's compulsory. FCKIN hell. I HATE SCHOOL SO MUCH, SOMETIMES BEING A TEENAGER JUST MAKES ME WANNA DIE! URGHHHHHHHHHHHHH
